we cleaned the sor house today. we finally found out why the house smelled like a dead rat...

because there were three dead rats. one in each corner of the house. yuck. i can't believe the people who live there can tolerate that smell. they were waiting for us(the execom) to clean the place. they live there. they should be responsible for finding the rat..err.. rats.

we had fun though even if it took a lot of our body fat to burn. although i had this incident with "the girl", i still had my other friends there to keep my mind off her. *i swear, she's so immature! she was covering her ears when i was arguing with her! the improvement was so drastic that even if we felt so tired, the new ambiance of the place made us feel like it was all worth it. it didn't smell like a dead rat anymore but the soothing fragrance of the magic gel. i swear, that if anyone ever mess things up again, i'll throw the dead rats at them. elder or non-elder.

after cleaning, i was so hungry. i was asking some of the execom(the new sisses, jone and uary were there. they were very helpful) if they wanted to eat but they all wanted to go home. except for mommy queenie. so we went to hap chang. i missed her so much. we kept talking about everything. i even told her about "the girl". she tried to relate it to tita liza but it really was different. i had a really great time with her. i thought before, that we weren't going to have those moments that we can just talk about anything anymore since in a way, we've been so busy we haven't seen each other lately. but today, i was mistaken. it was just like before. she's becoming a better friend than the "friend" i thought would be the best. in a way, i don't grieve for my loss because i gained something better. someone who really listens and who's mature.

on my way home, "the girl" texted me and told me she was hurt. by what?! if anyone was going to be hurt, it should as hell be me. i can't really figure her out... and i don't ever plan to. five stressful years with her is enough. i'm planning to get over her imperatively.

you can have the best of times, and then you can also have the worst of times.

last friday was elgin's birthday dinner. there was this thing again about this girl i said i would never talk about. so... i won't talk about it okay? we arrived late for dinner because of the heavy traffic and the girl. i swear, sometimes she can really be so insensitive... or was she just playing dumb? i really don't know. anyway, i didn't get to talk to elgin that much. i wish i had. i really miss him. sometimes, he doesn't text that much anymore. we have different worlds now. it saddens me that we do.

a lot of things in my life are changing right now. some of them are the things that you thought would stay forever. but they've changed. it's really hard to adapt because it's harder to accept. sometimes, i don't think i can ever accept this reality that's in front of me. it's just too depressing.

after the dinner, i went out by myself to malate. they all went home early(it was 11:30 pm) and i still didn't want to go home because i was really pissed off at something. i had a fun night even if i was alone. i enjoyed myself because i felt like i could do anything that night. i met a guy. he was polite. i had fun talking to him. but i had even more fun dancing with him. i didn't even noticed the time. i left around 4:30 am. sometimes i still think about that night. it really wasn't something special but i just felt free. free from everything. my problems, my life and from myself.... but only for just that night.

when i came home that day, i had to leave early again for my dentist appointment. i had my third molars(or in layman's terms, wisdom teeth) pulled out. i so never want to experience that again. it's a good thing i only have that many molars to pull out. i still cringe whenever i remember the experience.

i thought i only had to go to the dentist but it turns out, someone didn't do my favor. so, there i was with my icebag on my cheek heading off to tutuban to pick up the clipboards for the orientation. you really can't just rely on some people.

the next day, i expected to meet someone at the sor house to work on the clipboards. instead, i ended up doing it all by myself. buddy lisa told me not to go anymore but since i trusted the person to meet me there, i went. to my disappointment, she wasn't coming. i finished making the 250 clipboards for the orientation by 5:30 pm. i was really angry at myself for being such a fool. i swear, my dedication to the sorority is almost out. if it weren't for jone(the new sis who's so active), i would have lost it after this.

some people talaga.