i'm out of the country right now.

and for the past two days, i'm still suffering from jetlag. i feel like i'm in limbo. cold limbo. funny thing with this limbo though, i've spent a quarter of my pocket money on bath and body works products.

anyway, i'm staying at my cousin's house tonight. i get to see my niece, anushka again. this time, she's not crying all the time. just half of it anyway. i like staying here. even if you make a mess, you don't get scolded for it. it's like being in a non-adult home. my cousin is only 29 or 30 at the most and she still acts like the way we used to be when we were kids... part clown and part fashionista. it's fun seeing her with anushka. she's a very loving mother but whenever anushka really gets to her... oh my. she scolds her in our masbatenean dialect and some of it, as i can remember from my limited vocabulary, are very bad words. i always laugh at her when she does that. who could understand what she's saying here anyway? even her husband can't understand it.

not everything here is exactly enjoyable. there are a lot of things here that i know that i can't say or i've discovered that i shouldn't know and i can't say. it's a family problem between my tita and my cousin. it frustrates the hell out of me. i love them both and i know both their sides. but it's just complicated. i think things get more complicated when mature people fight. i just hope eventually their little misunderstanding wil get fixed somehow. after all, we're all family.

my brother wants to stay for another week. i'm actually both liking and hating the idea. hating, because i'm missing a ton of people already. liking, because this is my last summer and i want to see more of my cousins. i really haven't told my brother my final decision yet. i'll just think about it tomorrow. as for now, i have to give my niece a piggyback ride ;)

the patient was admitted 32 hours prior to consultation due to minor head trauma. he has experienced severe headaches and complains of intermittent episodes of syncope. no hemorrhage seen on physical exam but fracture may be possible. lab tests requested.

what's his dx?

none. he's chester. my car.

he was finally being brought in at honda alabang after a week since he's been hit by norma(the peeling face idiot) and her nissan sentra. the entire fender will be replaced(whoopee!) and that means, all the scratches my dad, my brother and me had inflicted, will be totally removed from the car. i just wish they get it back before i get back.

anyways...

i think today will be my last day at work. i'm sad that i didn't do well today. i had a lot of repeat finger pricks but at least i finally(hopefully) got the hang of it. i got the chance to redeem myself with the two successful beautiful capillets full of blood but lost it when i did one failed extraction. haaayyy... what is it with this last day?

ria/rhea came back from boracay and i just love the puka shell bracelet she gave me(i'm still wearing it as i type this and joe is giving me a hard time about it). i smiled when i saw her all tan and in her sandals. it looks as if she's still in boracay. i'm glad she had a good time. she deserves it. i'll miss her when i leave tomorrow. she's one of the friends that i feel most comfortable with. no pretensions, no special treatment and definitely no expectations of any sort. just me. that's why i like her so much. my life is so much healthier because sometimes she actually takes all the stress away. i'm just sad that we're both going to lose our jobs. oh well. it was going to happen anyway. i just wish she and "another person" could trade places so that my life would really be happier ;) if ya know what i mean...

thanks man. i'll be missing you... well at least for a week lang naman.

hayayay...

i know i promised not to write about this anymore but... @#$%#%!!! and then !@$$#%@%^*& after that $^&#*!@$ and left the !@#$*($%!@#!!!

10... 9... 8...

okay. i'm fine now. i guess some people don't change even if "things" have changed. if you don't get it, good. it might be someone you know and i don't need it to be complicated as it is by letting that person know how i feel. it's just so irritating that this person still expects a lot from me. call me a bad person if it's wrong but nonetheless, i will not be the willing martyr and tolerate all this crap thrown at me. let's be friends but don't abuse it, man.

what a day.

mommy queenie and i met yesterday around 8 am at the sor house to pick out pictures for the 40th anniversary flash invitation. as we were looking through the old photo albums of the past batches, i noticed that the sorority back then was really quite different from today. besides the bad haircuts and disastrous fashion statements, they were obviously very active back then. i wonder what went wrong??

after picking out the pictures, we then decided to look for sponsors for the planner. our first choice was national bookstore, quezon avenue. we didn't really get to give the solicitation letter but we had a lot of fun trying to convince the snobbish sales lady. in vain, we headed back to school and i met with buddy lisa while mommy dear was off to class.

dinner time. sister clair sevellano segui arrived from the states and invited some of the undergrads to meet with her and have dinner. both me and donna agreed that clair looked like ma'am cacai(a former extern at makati med). she was nice... and i could tell even if i didn't really had the chance to talk to her. some older sisses were also there like pinky(and i think she's really pretty) and donna corpuz, chris yeban, ging espiritu, bibeth and carelle roux. it was nice to see that they still had something to talk about even if they hadn't seen each other in years. it made me think about me and the sisses i'm with. will we be like that in the coming future? if ever i do get to go abroad and decide to come back to manila to visit, will i take the undergrads out for dinner? will they welcome me when i do come back?... and that's when i started to feel a bit sleepy during dinner. i knew i was bored and thinking of complete nonsense already. we ended dinner around 10:30 pm.

i took some of the sisses back to the sor house and to my surprise, mommy queenie suggested that she sleep over at my house. i was really astonished and delighted about the whole thing that i didn't think twice and just answered a cheerful "yes". so she packed her stuff and off we were to my house at around 11:45 am. when we arrived, we were both so tired that we just both jumped on the bed and started to talk about a lot of things... which was the high of this day. we didn't stop talking until about 2 am. it was great having her here. she really is a terrific person to be with. unfortunately, she had class the next day and i had to take her back to school. we got up, got dressed and drove to school. i stayed for a few minutes to rest and to talk with karen and dennis. when it was time for mommy and karen to go to school, i decided to go home.

...and now i'm here, smiling, typing away how one sunny unforgetful monday i've had went.